Is it over?
I don't know.
Tonight is the night I messed up. Again.
My pleasure seeking soul sought out what it was craving for....PORN!!!
This wasn't because I was directly looking for it.
Within the amount of blogs t
Monday, December 8, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
I AM...
Resourceful
Just reminding myself a couple things that interested me about yesterday's lesson in class...this one stood out.
GOOD NIGHT! OYASUMI!
Just reminding myself a couple things that interested me about yesterday's lesson in class...this one stood out.
GOOD NIGHT! OYASUMI!
REALIZATION
I just thought this up before closing the gym about an hour and a half ago...
I just know it: I belong at the top of the educational chain
And this is me when I'm not being lazy. I actually took advantage of reading a chapter in my book for my multicultural issues class. After class too, yesterday, I decided to ask the teacher for help. She's a Filipina counselor and teacher, the only fulltime teacher in our district that is not white. It's not a supremacy thing, I just find that very inspiring (and to note, she's a very strong person). I asked her to help me, to motivate myself. She immediately told me about her counseling theory class and other class I should take next semester..but I wasn't looking for that (even tho the couns. theory class sounded fun). I was already fully enrolled for next semester, and it would conflict with the times of classes I'm already in. Anyways...my original purpose was just to get some counseling, to prepare me to be a student who does WELL.
I guess me asking for help is what triggered me to realize that I deserve to be on top. Sure there were other realizations about myself educationally before, but not as clear cut and strong as this one sounds!
So now that I figured where I want to go...I've gotta make it happen!!
I just know it: I belong at the top of the educational chain
And this is me when I'm not being lazy. I actually took advantage of reading a chapter in my book for my multicultural issues class. After class too, yesterday, I decided to ask the teacher for help. She's a Filipina counselor and teacher, the only fulltime teacher in our district that is not white. It's not a supremacy thing, I just find that very inspiring (and to note, she's a very strong person). I asked her to help me, to motivate myself. She immediately told me about her counseling theory class and other class I should take next semester..but I wasn't looking for that (even tho the couns. theory class sounded fun). I was already fully enrolled for next semester, and it would conflict with the times of classes I'm already in. Anyways...my original purpose was just to get some counseling, to prepare me to be a student who does WELL.
I guess me asking for help is what triggered me to realize that I deserve to be on top. Sure there were other realizations about myself educationally before, but not as clear cut and strong as this one sounds!
So now that I figured where I want to go...I've gotta make it happen!!
I'M OKAY!
Lol. I was looking at a couple blogs. From Miong21, to Stained...to Tiggah's life and then to some of HIS links. And all of a sudden these naked men with big huge cocks in your face come take place on the screen. Dude. I wasn't looking for that.
So in times where I'd be okay to do that, I might just do that. But this time, it's not okay. But really, it's okay because I wasn't looking for it. I'm really just curious about people and their blogs now...now that I see this is something I want to continue doing again in my life. I want to find people I can relate to...ya know? So who's more relatable to me than an early 20s gay dude who likes porn a lot? ya...i thought so.
Anyways...as long as my intentions are not to look at porn and I don't stare too hard when I do see it, I will pass this test, which ends in 15 days!
So in times where I'd be okay to do that, I might just do that. But this time, it's not okay. But really, it's okay because I wasn't looking for it. I'm really just curious about people and their blogs now...now that I see this is something I want to continue doing again in my life. I want to find people I can relate to...ya know? So who's more relatable to me than an early 20s gay dude who likes porn a lot? ya...i thought so.
Anyways...as long as my intentions are not to look at porn and I don't stare too hard when I do see it, I will pass this test, which ends in 15 days!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
CHRISTMAS WITH MARIAH
From the Grammys tonight...
I think it's great that she did not sing "I Stay in Love", for various reasons. 1 being that she already sang it at the AMAs. Another being that she has a vast catalog of music that SHOULD be celebrated sometimes, especially considering the time of the year. While it may be smart to try to push the new single to further gain success, I think they've done the right thing to just celebrate her music,.. ALL of it!!!
And she really didn't do a bad job. Though she could've smiled a lot more from the beginning AND moved...it was MUCH better than her Hero at X Factor.
DINNER TONIGHT.
I made some stir fry for dinner. Damn it's so friggin expensive to buy such little things. Anyways I hope you know that MY PARENTS ARE GONE for the PHILIPPINES for almost all December!!! SO mark your calendars! lol. jk. I'm not having any big parties, I don't think.
I was made to promise not to have any sleep overs. oops. Guess that one's broken already. But I've never had the house to myself and have to have it for that long. Though I wish it could be longer, things are way to expensive that I'm actually glad theyre coming back this month, and not any time longer. I wasn't left any money, just some extra food (but not a lot) to help me out.
Ok well I have a lot of shit to do for class that I barely started on, so have a good night!
I was made to promise not to have any sleep overs. oops. Guess that one's broken already. But I've never had the house to myself and have to have it for that long. Though I wish it could be longer, things are way to expensive that I'm actually glad theyre coming back this month, and not any time longer. I wasn't left any money, just some extra food (but not a lot) to help me out.
Ok well I have a lot of shit to do for class that I barely started on, so have a good night!
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