3 of them with my pubes (could they be ingrown hairs?)
And one on the side of my buttcheek.
It's like, lumps.
I've read some things on the butt one and it says it could be a cyst. I highly doubt it's an abcess because I've had one before (MRSA) and it had puss. Thank god I got rid of that, and I healed SUPER quickly.
I need to get cheked though I really don't want to right away. Do u guys know what it may be?
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
MISSION: CLEANLINESS
This has been something I've been wanting to do for awhile, but it's one of those things I've never fully stepped into as mentioned earlier.
Aspiring to move to greater heights, I will enhance myself with being clean. This means all sorts of cleanliness: my body, my room, car, at work and my mind.
The first part of the mission is to
CLEAN MY ROOM.
Being sick isn't going to help much, but I can start small. I know I can do this, I just need to do it. It's easy for the Aries soul to make a blueprint for something with the perfect goal, but to follow it completely becomes too boring.
As we are now fully in the time of Capricorn since last week, I ought to start building on my ambition and actually work towards my goals. Otherwise, I'd be frozen in the dead of winter. Might I thank Capricorn for the wonderful ability to manipulate things for a reason...a practical reason that will actually get me somewhere.
Aspiring to move to greater heights, I will enhance myself with being clean. This means all sorts of cleanliness: my body, my room, car, at work and my mind.
The first part of the mission is to
CLEAN MY ROOM.
Being sick isn't going to help much, but I can start small. I know I can do this, I just need to do it. It's easy for the Aries soul to make a blueprint for something with the perfect goal, but to follow it completely becomes too boring.
As we are now fully in the time of Capricorn since last week, I ought to start building on my ambition and actually work towards my goals. Otherwise, I'd be frozen in the dead of winter. Might I thank Capricorn for the wonderful ability to manipulate things for a reason...a practical reason that will actually get me somewhere.
WHITNEY
Port
I've never really watched The Hills, but for some reason, The City captured me..could it just be the commercials or just Whitney's presence? She isn't really the most gorgeous girl out there but she is damn right gorgeous in her own way. She can pretty much fit into anything. She's a Pisces...damn Pisces! lol. Just like Tony.
I think I have to adapt more to the lifestyle, being so closed about watching Lauren and Audrina (I just got Audrina's name from Wikipedia ...).
Speaking of what went on last night as well, Bromance premiered and it had a gay guy who I thought was really negative the whole time. Turns out he thought the show would be like the Hills..lol. I mean, there are gonna be episodes where it has drama like the Hills but maybe u should've read what the series was about before auditioning, Mr. Gay Michael. Something that really ticked me off was that during the whole show, he gave off his gayness as a reason for everything: the reason he got girls (although that one's true) to the party, the reason he'll continue to get girls...and his cleanliness. I dunno I don't see every gay guy being that clean. I mean look at me. I'm SO the opposite, but I do want to be clean.
I didn't let myself hold too much hatred around Mr. Michael because I was inspired just seeing Whitney's pics in the commercial for the City. It makes me want to be more clean, independent and high-end. I already think of myself as being able to be fashionable, just like being a wild party kid or a party pooper. But never full on have I really became something other than myself (minus the occupation)...I think what I have accomplished is my sense of self. Now it's time to master something..and Ms. Port inspired me to do something.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Morning Musume - "COVER YOU" Review
The album dropped like last month, and the sales flip flang flopped. Sayumi Michishige's voice (or just Sayu) just got 10x more annoying, and Reina Tanaka stole the center of the cover for no good reason. Despite the irritations, this album is actually quite good. It's very solid and doesn't stray away from focus. It's just pure Japanese classics that are sung MM style.
01 - Nagisa no Sindibad
It didn't immediately stick out to me before, but it's actually good. The "SEXY"s are great and so is the harmony.
02 - Dou ni mo Tomaranai
Where track 1 didn't stick out, this one did at the first listen. I LOVE the beat, being that it's so danceable. MM is very good for the kind of chorus it has as well. It's a perfect fit.
03 - Izakaya
I don't know. Whether to like it or hate it. Sometimes I really like it, but overall I think it's not really Morning Musume as it is a duet between Ai Takahashi and that guy who starts out the song. I do however like this kind of music, the Enka style that is. It's pretty, and I guess Ai's mature voice is the only one that matches it best.
04 - Pepper Keibu
5 stars!! The only single that came out from this album as we know it. It's PERFECT transition from Pink Lady to Momusu. And everyone got solo/duet lines with each other. Even though it's all dancing, I did find the music video and dance entertaining. Go watch!! O ya, just to note that this is the Album Version...the only thing Album versiony to it is 1-2 seconds from the beginning is copied and pasted at the very end...which is very strange.
05 - Shiroi Chou no Samba
I believe Lin Lin and Jun Jun sing the main verses, which for them are sung very well. I'm very glad they got to be centers..it's hope to see them in the center for a single! The chorus is pretty, but overall it's similar to track 7 and I take track 7 over this. But it's still good.
06 - Seishun Jidai
This is a greaat song. The harmonies on the chorus are so good. I can compare it to Danity Kane easily.
07 - Ringo Satsujin Jiken
I LOOOVE this song. It's like paradise vacation singing bird walking the outside mall song. But the one thing that I can't stand is in here...Sayu's voice!!! She sounds like Ms. Swan. I'm serious...I know she's portraying the "Cute" of MM but the voice needs to be knocked off. She needs to find her real voice because I know she's faking this. lol. Other than that, this song is very cutesy..so I guess that's why they have a lot of Sayu here.
08 - Romance
It's the B-Side to Pepper Keibu single. Though I didn't like it before, I don't know what I was thinking cause it's REALLY good. It's one of the star tracks I always put over others.
09 - Machi no Hikari
Ai's voice, so very pwettyy.. lol. This is one of those Ai-center songs, but Risa does have some parts as well. It's a good break after all those dancey songs.
10 - Koi no Dial 6700
Back to dancey. This time in Hong Kong!! wooo! lol. It starts of with Lin&Jun going "Lei lei lei lei lei..." omg, i can't believe there was ever a song so chinese before, and they just happened to add two Chinese members to Morning Musume, making for the PERFECT matchup huh? I thot it was kind of annoying at first, but the actual song is very fun. Time for more... (oh yeah Koharu's voice is AMAZING at the "telephone numBAA" parts. and this is one of those songs that I appreciate Reina having lines in)
11 - Pinponpan Taisou
AHHH! Lol. I was addicted to this one from the start...tho it has lessened and I'm glad. It's like a fricking horseback song while fishing for some surus. And things swimming in the ocean, u know like styrofoam fish and water that kids use to make little movies. The song literally turns me into a kid again. It has so many transitions to it, I guess that's what makes it so interesting and able to listen to multiple times without releasing ALL of what's in there right away. Anyways, I'm really glad they sang this because I can relate to it's kiddishness. And at the end they say ARIGATO so they're happy and thankful..lol.
12 - Watashi no Aoi Tori
Lol I always skip this one. but i don't dislike it. I love the "goo goo goo goos". Ok time to skip.
13 - Johnny e no Dengen
This one seriously reminds me of Cinderella or something. Probably cause they did do Cinderella the Musical this year. Risa Niigaki, one of my fav members starts off the song!! -). She sounds a little more manly tho, probably because she's singing with her diaphram and isn't used to it yet. VERY pretty song. My boyfriend even started singing along to it in the car because it's so catchy. I appreciate when he does that so then it doesn't seem like he doesn't like my music entirely lol.
14 - UFO
I don't know. I hardly listen to it. I was never really into UFOish kind of music (except for Ginga no Chikai by MAX, and Spice Up Your Life by POSH of course!) I guess it's a good way to say bye being the final track. UFO . yayyy, w'ere gonna ride a spaceship. I dunno i'm listening to it right now. They can do without it.
Overall a great cover album, very entertaining compared to most covers. Does anyone have the lyrics and who sang what? I can't find it. -p.
01 - Nagisa no Sindibad
It didn't immediately stick out to me before, but it's actually good. The "SEXY"s are great and so is the harmony.
02 - Dou ni mo Tomaranai
Where track 1 didn't stick out, this one did at the first listen. I LOVE the beat, being that it's so danceable. MM is very good for the kind of chorus it has as well. It's a perfect fit.
03 - Izakaya
I don't know. Whether to like it or hate it. Sometimes I really like it, but overall I think it's not really Morning Musume as it is a duet between Ai Takahashi and that guy who starts out the song. I do however like this kind of music, the Enka style that is. It's pretty, and I guess Ai's mature voice is the only one that matches it best.
04 - Pepper Keibu
5 stars!! The only single that came out from this album as we know it. It's PERFECT transition from Pink Lady to Momusu. And everyone got solo/duet lines with each other. Even though it's all dancing, I did find the music video and dance entertaining. Go watch!! O ya, just to note that this is the Album Version...the only thing Album versiony to it is 1-2 seconds from the beginning is copied and pasted at the very end...which is very strange.
05 - Shiroi Chou no Samba
I believe Lin Lin and Jun Jun sing the main verses, which for them are sung very well. I'm very glad they got to be centers..it's hope to see them in the center for a single! The chorus is pretty, but overall it's similar to track 7 and I take track 7 over this. But it's still good.
06 - Seishun Jidai
This is a greaat song. The harmonies on the chorus are so good. I can compare it to Danity Kane easily.
07 - Ringo Satsujin Jiken
I LOOOVE this song. It's like paradise vacation singing bird walking the outside mall song. But the one thing that I can't stand is in here...Sayu's voice!!! She sounds like Ms. Swan. I'm serious...I know she's portraying the "Cute" of MM but the voice needs to be knocked off. She needs to find her real voice because I know she's faking this. lol. Other than that, this song is very cutesy..so I guess that's why they have a lot of Sayu here.
08 - Romance
It's the B-Side to Pepper Keibu single. Though I didn't like it before, I don't know what I was thinking cause it's REALLY good. It's one of the star tracks I always put over others.
09 - Machi no Hikari
Ai's voice, so very pwettyy.. lol. This is one of those Ai-center songs, but Risa does have some parts as well. It's a good break after all those dancey songs.
10 - Koi no Dial 6700
Back to dancey. This time in Hong Kong!! wooo! lol. It starts of with Lin&Jun going "Lei lei lei lei lei..." omg, i can't believe there was ever a song so chinese before, and they just happened to add two Chinese members to Morning Musume, making for the PERFECT matchup huh? I thot it was kind of annoying at first, but the actual song is very fun. Time for more... (oh yeah Koharu's voice is AMAZING at the "telephone numBAA" parts. and this is one of those songs that I appreciate Reina having lines in)
11 - Pinponpan Taisou
AHHH! Lol. I was addicted to this one from the start...tho it has lessened and I'm glad. It's like a fricking horseback song while fishing for some surus. And things swimming in the ocean, u know like styrofoam fish and water that kids use to make little movies. The song literally turns me into a kid again. It has so many transitions to it, I guess that's what makes it so interesting and able to listen to multiple times without releasing ALL of what's in there right away. Anyways, I'm really glad they sang this because I can relate to it's kiddishness. And at the end they say ARIGATO so they're happy and thankful..lol.
12 - Watashi no Aoi Tori
Lol I always skip this one. but i don't dislike it. I love the "goo goo goo goos". Ok time to skip.
13 - Johnny e no Dengen
This one seriously reminds me of Cinderella or something. Probably cause they did do Cinderella the Musical this year. Risa Niigaki, one of my fav members starts off the song!! -). She sounds a little more manly tho, probably because she's singing with her diaphram and isn't used to it yet. VERY pretty song. My boyfriend even started singing along to it in the car because it's so catchy. I appreciate when he does that so then it doesn't seem like he doesn't like my music entirely lol.
14 - UFO
I don't know. I hardly listen to it. I was never really into UFOish kind of music (except for Ginga no Chikai by MAX, and Spice Up Your Life by POSH of course!) I guess it's a good way to say bye being the final track. UFO . yayyy, w'ere gonna ride a spaceship. I dunno i'm listening to it right now. They can do without it.
Overall a great cover album, very entertaining compared to most covers. Does anyone have the lyrics and who sang what? I can't find it. -p.
Friday, December 19, 2008
QUICK READING
http://www.wikihow.com/Be-a-Good-Boyfriend
Yep. I searched it. "How to be a good boyfriend." I know I've read somethings like once or twice before, but I didn't take those so seriously.
This one makes a lot more sense than just kissey kissey lovey dovey. I'm way passed that point and just want to mature myself completely. Though the butterflies to still come when we're dancing at the club. But only rarely do those butterflies come, and my friend Sarah has helped to get us to have those moments together. Thank you, Sarah -p!
Yep. I searched it. "How to be a good boyfriend." I know I've read somethings like once or twice before, but I didn't take those so seriously.
This one makes a lot more sense than just kissey kissey lovey dovey. I'm way passed that point and just want to mature myself completely. Though the butterflies to still come when we're dancing at the club. But only rarely do those butterflies come, and my friend Sarah has helped to get us to have those moments together. Thank you, Sarah -p!
FINALLY
So much happened today (err yesterday)
I went through half of my final which was singing karaoke at a multicultural potluck. The rest is an online test which consists of essay questions. This is open book so it's real easy, but i love my teacher.
By the way I wanted to meet my teacher's son (not necessarily like that), who is also into art and wants to be a photographer. We went to high school together but never talked. So after work I decided to hang out with my friend Lea who was going out with him and a few other friends to TGI. It was all too short. But I had a good time. I want to do it again.
And I met this Vietnamese girl who seems to have had a very interesting life. She's already ran a restaurant with her family before the age of 22. That's bigger than anything I've done in my whole life. lol! Well other than me singing dancing and being queer on stage.
Besides the regular jacking off session I have almost once, twice or three times a day I've done more than I normally do. And at the end of the day I feel good. Yet it's 2 am and I have work at 11:30.
Hope you all are enjoying yourselves through this holiday season. Make yourself warm and strengthen the bonds of your relationships. That's advice I'll give to anyone including myself, especially right now since it's that time-- to be together. Feel free to take advantage of others, but just don't hurt them. Don't be scared to say "I LOVE YOU" to everyone around you. I'd like to practice that more with Tony. Even though I don't like saying it a lot.
Well...gnite!
I went through half of my final which was singing karaoke at a multicultural potluck. The rest is an online test which consists of essay questions. This is open book so it's real easy, but i love my teacher.
By the way I wanted to meet my teacher's son (not necessarily like that), who is also into art and wants to be a photographer. We went to high school together but never talked. So after work I decided to hang out with my friend Lea who was going out with him and a few other friends to TGI. It was all too short. But I had a good time. I want to do it again.
And I met this Vietnamese girl who seems to have had a very interesting life. She's already ran a restaurant with her family before the age of 22. That's bigger than anything I've done in my whole life. lol! Well other than me singing dancing and being queer on stage.
Besides the regular jacking off session I have almost once, twice or three times a day I've done more than I normally do. And at the end of the day I feel good. Yet it's 2 am and I have work at 11:30.
Hope you all are enjoying yourselves through this holiday season. Make yourself warm and strengthen the bonds of your relationships. That's advice I'll give to anyone including myself, especially right now since it's that time-- to be together. Feel free to take advantage of others, but just don't hurt them. Don't be scared to say "I LOVE YOU" to everyone around you. I'd like to practice that more with Tony. Even though I don't like saying it a lot.
Well...gnite!
Monday, December 15, 2008
MANO PIANO
Has anyone here heard of her? Anyways, in only a short period of her time in the light of music, she's probably the cutest person to ever perform. This is because she truly appreciates the stage...when no one is crying she will.
Though she's not much of a singER yet, she has a TON of potential. Her first out of three indies singles (the third single about to be released, which the pic on the right is the cover) was like an introduction to her and music...like a little school girl playing piano for the first few weeks.. no wonder it's called "Mano Piano."
Her second single "Lucky Aura" is super cute..it can be used in pretty much any cute anime they throw out. lol.
Here's a vid of her performing her two first singles. "Lucky Aura" is first.
Monday, December 8, 2008
SO?
Is it over?
I don't know.
Tonight is the night I messed up. Again.
My pleasure seeking soul sought out what it was craving for....PORN!!!
This wasn't because I was directly looking for it.
Within the amount of blogs t
I don't know.
Tonight is the night I messed up. Again.
My pleasure seeking soul sought out what it was craving for....PORN!!!
This wasn't because I was directly looking for it.
Within the amount of blogs t
Friday, December 5, 2008
I AM...
Resourceful
Just reminding myself a couple things that interested me about yesterday's lesson in class...this one stood out.
GOOD NIGHT! OYASUMI!
Just reminding myself a couple things that interested me about yesterday's lesson in class...this one stood out.
GOOD NIGHT! OYASUMI!
REALIZATION
I just thought this up before closing the gym about an hour and a half ago...
I just know it: I belong at the top of the educational chain
And this is me when I'm not being lazy. I actually took advantage of reading a chapter in my book for my multicultural issues class. After class too, yesterday, I decided to ask the teacher for help. She's a Filipina counselor and teacher, the only fulltime teacher in our district that is not white. It's not a supremacy thing, I just find that very inspiring (and to note, she's a very strong person). I asked her to help me, to motivate myself. She immediately told me about her counseling theory class and other class I should take next semester..but I wasn't looking for that (even tho the couns. theory class sounded fun). I was already fully enrolled for next semester, and it would conflict with the times of classes I'm already in. Anyways...my original purpose was just to get some counseling, to prepare me to be a student who does WELL.
I guess me asking for help is what triggered me to realize that I deserve to be on top. Sure there were other realizations about myself educationally before, but not as clear cut and strong as this one sounds!
So now that I figured where I want to go...I've gotta make it happen!!
I just know it: I belong at the top of the educational chain
And this is me when I'm not being lazy. I actually took advantage of reading a chapter in my book for my multicultural issues class. After class too, yesterday, I decided to ask the teacher for help. She's a Filipina counselor and teacher, the only fulltime teacher in our district that is not white. It's not a supremacy thing, I just find that very inspiring (and to note, she's a very strong person). I asked her to help me, to motivate myself. She immediately told me about her counseling theory class and other class I should take next semester..but I wasn't looking for that (even tho the couns. theory class sounded fun). I was already fully enrolled for next semester, and it would conflict with the times of classes I'm already in. Anyways...my original purpose was just to get some counseling, to prepare me to be a student who does WELL.
I guess me asking for help is what triggered me to realize that I deserve to be on top. Sure there were other realizations about myself educationally before, but not as clear cut and strong as this one sounds!
So now that I figured where I want to go...I've gotta make it happen!!
I'M OKAY!
Lol. I was looking at a couple blogs. From Miong21, to Stained...to Tiggah's life and then to some of HIS links. And all of a sudden these naked men with big huge cocks in your face come take place on the screen. Dude. I wasn't looking for that.
So in times where I'd be okay to do that, I might just do that. But this time, it's not okay. But really, it's okay because I wasn't looking for it. I'm really just curious about people and their blogs now...now that I see this is something I want to continue doing again in my life. I want to find people I can relate to...ya know? So who's more relatable to me than an early 20s gay dude who likes porn a lot? ya...i thought so.
Anyways...as long as my intentions are not to look at porn and I don't stare too hard when I do see it, I will pass this test, which ends in 15 days!
So in times where I'd be okay to do that, I might just do that. But this time, it's not okay. But really, it's okay because I wasn't looking for it. I'm really just curious about people and their blogs now...now that I see this is something I want to continue doing again in my life. I want to find people I can relate to...ya know? So who's more relatable to me than an early 20s gay dude who likes porn a lot? ya...i thought so.
Anyways...as long as my intentions are not to look at porn and I don't stare too hard when I do see it, I will pass this test, which ends in 15 days!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
CHRISTMAS WITH MARIAH
From the Grammys tonight...
I think it's great that she did not sing "I Stay in Love", for various reasons. 1 being that she already sang it at the AMAs. Another being that she has a vast catalog of music that SHOULD be celebrated sometimes, especially considering the time of the year. While it may be smart to try to push the new single to further gain success, I think they've done the right thing to just celebrate her music,.. ALL of it!!!
And she really didn't do a bad job. Though she could've smiled a lot more from the beginning AND moved...it was MUCH better than her Hero at X Factor.
DINNER TONIGHT.
I made some stir fry for dinner. Damn it's so friggin expensive to buy such little things. Anyways I hope you know that MY PARENTS ARE GONE for the PHILIPPINES for almost all December!!! SO mark your calendars! lol. jk. I'm not having any big parties, I don't think.
I was made to promise not to have any sleep overs. oops. Guess that one's broken already. But I've never had the house to myself and have to have it for that long. Though I wish it could be longer, things are way to expensive that I'm actually glad theyre coming back this month, and not any time longer. I wasn't left any money, just some extra food (but not a lot) to help me out.
Ok well I have a lot of shit to do for class that I barely started on, so have a good night!
I was made to promise not to have any sleep overs. oops. Guess that one's broken already. But I've never had the house to myself and have to have it for that long. Though I wish it could be longer, things are way to expensive that I'm actually glad theyre coming back this month, and not any time longer. I wasn't left any money, just some extra food (but not a lot) to help me out.
Ok well I have a lot of shit to do for class that I barely started on, so have a good night!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
PORNIFICATION.
Almost my whole life has been centered around porn.
I've been crazed about it since I was 10.
It's not just the sex
Or the acts of masturbation.
It's the pleasure I have sought out.
To this day, I am an addict.
Whether it's a dream of dating a porn star..
Being a porn star...
I've had all of those dreams and ambitions.
And although I still am tempted to fall under the pits of the past
With who I was and who I want to be now
This time
I will not let myself
For the coming weeks.
Though porn will not fall completely out of my life,
It MUST be limited.
I must find ways beyond self satisfaction to enjoy LIFE.
PLEASE HELP ME.
Thank you ALL to you who have visited so far. I know it hasn't lasted long at ALL, but this blog means alot to me, especially right about now. Once again, this time of my life is very crucial to my own well being.
I seek BALANCE.
Please remember this the next time you see my face. Ask me questions when I'm with you personally, or on chat or whatever. Just note that it IS a very personal topic...so be gentle with it. THANKS!
I've been crazed about it since I was 10.
It's not just the sex
Or the acts of masturbation.
It's the pleasure I have sought out.
To this day, I am an addict.
Whether it's a dream of dating a porn star..
Being a porn star...
I've had all of those dreams and ambitions.
And although I still am tempted to fall under the pits of the past
With who I was and who I want to be now
This time
I will not let myself
For the coming weeks.
Though porn will not fall completely out of my life,
It MUST be limited.
I must find ways beyond self satisfaction to enjoy LIFE.
PLEASE HELP ME.
Thank you ALL to you who have visited so far. I know it hasn't lasted long at ALL, but this blog means alot to me, especially right about now. Once again, this time of my life is very crucial to my own well being.
I seek BALANCE.
Please remember this the next time you see my face. Ask me questions when I'm with you personally, or on chat or whatever. Just note that it IS a very personal topic...so be gentle with it. THANKS!
KEEP YOU IN THE LIGHT
I want to keep you in the lightMy darling
My dear
Theres so many games I want to play
In light of you and I
Together facing mountains
I want to walk the endless road
To see the 'end'
What we can be
This relationship we share
That no one, and everyone else belongs to
Only the things we choose to do
Will show the future
So in spite of everything I did
All the darkness I put you through
I put a light on
Just for you
To keep you shining in my life
That's the shine I choose
-Me
THE TEST
Dude. It's really hard.
Ok I failed this assignment 2-3 times already (the not watching porn one).
But this is IT.
The only person in the end I'm hurting is myself if i fail again, for wanting a relationship in the first place and asking for it, and then burning it.
Please give me your support. Thank you!!!
Ok I failed this assignment 2-3 times already (the not watching porn one).
But this is IT.
The only person in the end I'm hurting is myself if i fail again, for wanting a relationship in the first place and asking for it, and then burning it.
Please give me your support. Thank you!!!
LAST CHANCE
Last dance,
Last chance
Toniiighhhttt...! U
Well, for 3 weeks. I'm given 3 weeks not to watch porn to save my relationship with the one I'm with.
And by his definition...anything that I intend to turn myself on with.
Let's have fun with this, shall we?
Last chance
Toniiighhhttt...! U
Well, for 3 weeks. I'm given 3 weeks not to watch porn to save my relationship with the one I'm with.
And by his definition...anything that I intend to turn myself on with.
Let's have fun with this, shall we?
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