Almost my whole life has been centered around porn.
I've been crazed about it since I was 10.
It's not just the sex
Or the acts of masturbation.
It's the pleasure I have sought out.
To this day, I am an addict.
Whether it's a dream of dating a porn star..
Being a porn star...
I've had all of those dreams and ambitions.
And although I still am tempted to fall under the pits of the past
With who I was and who I want to be now
This time
I will not let myself
For the coming weeks.
Though porn will not fall completely out of my life,
It MUST be limited.
I must find ways beyond self satisfaction to enjoy LIFE.
PLEASE HELP ME.
Thank you ALL to you who have visited so far. I know it hasn't lasted long at ALL, but this blog means alot to me, especially right about now. Once again, this time of my life is very crucial to my own well being.
I seek BALANCE.
Please remember this the next time you see my face. Ask me questions when I'm with you personally, or on chat or whatever. Just note that it IS a very personal topic...so be gentle with it. THANKS!
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There is nothing wrong with porn. Porn is the utmost pleasurable experience where one is able to fulfill fantasies. Maybe you and your partner should watch porn together?
There's a reason why I'm restricted to watch it for 3 weeks. But yes I agree with your statement about it. It IS the utmost satisfying experience for one person to experience alone. When me and Tony watched it together we merely turned it off after 5 minutes because it disrupted our intimacy. But When I'm alone, of course I agree that porn can be a great experience. It just matters how much it's affecting my life and how much time I'm allowing it to consume of me.
Did I mention I cannot masturbate either? unless I'm with him.
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