DINNER TONIGHT.

I made some stir fry for dinner. Damn it's so friggin expensive to buy such little things. Anyways I hope you know that MY PARENTS ARE GONE for the PHILIPPINES for almost all December!!! SO mark your calendars! lol. jk. I'm not having any big parties, I don't think.

I was made to promise not to have any sleep overs. oops. Guess that one's broken already. But I've never had the house to myself and have to have it for that long. Though I wish it could be longer, things are way to expensive that I'm actually glad theyre coming back this month, and not any time longer. I wasn't left any money, just some extra food (but not a lot) to help me out.

Ok well I have a lot of shit to do for class that I barely started on, so have a good night!

FUNNY SCHTUFF

http://www.cracked.com/article_15119_25-worst-rapper-names-all-time.html

Read the article.

PORNIFICATION.

Almost my whole life has been centered around porn.

I've been crazed about it since I was 10.

It's not just the sex

Or the acts of masturbation.

It's the pleasure I have sought out.

To this day, I am an addict.

Whether it's a dream of dating a porn star..

Being a porn star...

I've had all of those dreams and ambitions.

And although I still am tempted to fall under the pits of the past

With who I was and who I want to be now

This time

I will not let myself

For the coming weeks.

Though porn will not fall completely out of my life,

It MUST be limited.

I must find ways beyond self satisfaction to enjoy LIFE.

PLEASE HELP ME.

Thank you ALL to you who have visited so far. I know it hasn't lasted long at ALL, but this blog means alot to me, especially right about now. Once again, this time of my life is very crucial to my own well being.

I seek BALANCE.

Please remember this the next time you see my face. Ask me questions when I'm with you personally, or on chat or whatever. Just note that it IS a very personal topic...so be gentle with it. THANKS!

KEEP YOU IN THE LIGHT

I want to keep you in the light

My darling

My dear

Theres so many games I want to play
In light of you and I

Together facing mountains
I want to walk the endless road
To see the 'end'
What we can be

This relationship we share
That no one, and everyone else belongs to

Only the things we choose to do
Will show the future

So in spite of everything I did
All the darkness I put you through

I put a light on
Just for you
To keep you shining in my life
That's the shine I choose

-Me

THE TEST

Dude. It's really hard.

Ok I failed this assignment 2-3 times already (the not watching porn one).

But this is IT.

The only person in the end I'm hurting is myself if i fail again, for wanting a relationship in the first place and asking for it, and then burning it.

Please give me your support. Thank you!!!

CIRCUS

OH YA..

HAPPPY BIRTTHHHDAYYY to BRITNEY.

I don't think she did as bad as Perez thinks.

Even though it wasn't her BEST, at least its not anything close to being like the VMAs all over again.

oo..she's about to sing Womanizer!!

oh ya. BUY HER ALBUM. FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. TODAY.

LAST CHANCE

Last dance,
Last chance
Toniiighhhttt...! U

Well, for 3 weeks. I'm given 3 weeks not to watch porn to save my relationship with the one I'm with.

And by his definition...anything that I intend to turn myself on with.


Let's have fun with this, shall we?